just for u..

hi syg, im going to write in here yaa, because i cant write in notes in fb, terlalu repot dan sangat banyak org yg akan baca hehe..

i know you are a sleep now, and im missing u so much darling, and ofcourse im alone in my room, pretending that ur next to me sleeping or do something stupid :p.. last week i just i was so shocked when u said that ur going to leave to canada, i was just like "OH MY GOD, he's leaving, and im going to be alone again" thats the 1st thing that came up on my min when u said that, its not that im not supporting u in many ways, but i was shock!!! hhahaha, and i want to cry, but i cant, because i know u will said something, and u hate see me crying, hehe.. but still i cant imagine if u go to canada darling, im gonna miss u so much..

btw tomorrow will be our 2 month anniversary in our 3rd year together, haha, im just so lucky that i have you syg, i just cant imagine myself portray with someone else, believe it or not u change me syg, from the girl that very close to anybody into the girl whos not afraid of something hehe, i like that syg.. gosh i miss u so much syg, u know what i cant sleep without here with me, biasanya kan kalo jam sgini aku dah tidur, meninggalkan km sendirian ntn, ato ngapain gt, hehe, tp skarang aku msh bs nulis spanjang ini, huhu.. tau g si ay aku lg dengerin spice girls, haha, g penting abis aku ngasih tau km itu hahaha.. hmm kyknya td aku mau banyak ma km cm aku lupa aku mau ngomong apa skarang hehe,

i hope we can still be together until, i dont know when, which mean loong time, hehe, and u still love the way u love me when u first love me, there is one reason to hate u darling, but there are million reason to love u <3, i always love u syg, no matter what, maaf ya sdikit panjang, writing mode on nii, hehe..

haha udh ah aku malu panjang2, km bosen malah g di baca lg hahaha, love u de pokoknya, btw mana kado ku yg 1 lg? pnasaran ni aku? hehhehe.. miss u tengo mi amor, hehe, u just like my love drugsy baby hehe

Love u so much

people do get older

i just realize how fast the time goes by.. in about a year or so, im gonna finish my uni and all that stuff, i get a job, and maybe married the man i loved, WOW!! i cant believe it..

like a couple days ago, my brother just celebrate his 16th b'day, can u imagine, my young brother, just turn 16, 16 for god sake!! i just cant believe it.. and i just want to be there for him, and for my papa, gosh, he is just so old right now, i cant imagine being him, his kids just turn to be a grown up, pieces by pieces, left him alone, how sad..

then again i think about something, that this life is to short for being sad, or regretful, because we have such a limit time in here.. i just want to spend everyday of my life cheering about something, be thankful, thats the easiest thing that i can do for my life. be happy, smile, and try to hug people that i know everyday (just maybe :p).. what can i ask again from my life, i have a very nice family, even though its not complete but, yeaah, i have my significant other, who love me, adores me, miss me, i have friends that always going to be there for me everytime i need them..

gosh, how i love my life..