pagi-pagi buta+di gigitin nyamuk+g bs tidur= BT

parah gw g bs tidur nii, pdhl nanti siang gw hrs kerja gt paraaaah, huhuhu, dah gt di gigitin nyamuk pula di luar, waaaah!! gilaaa huhuhu... masa yaa waktu itu di tmpt kerja gw gt, ada bpk2 gt, gw g ngerti dia g pernah ke starbucks ato emg iseng, tiba2 nanya gini ke gw, "mbak, disini jual FRENCH FRIES g ya?", gw dgn tampang bloon hanya bengong dgn mulut menganga penting gt, gw mencoba cool aja, gw jawab aja "disini cm jual kopi pak", trs tiba2 tu bpk2 nanya "mbak, disini ada pizza hut g ya?", tambah bengong aja gw di tanyain bgitu, trs dia pake nanya2 pula pizza hut di dkt mana, gila apa, emg gw bagian informasi hahahaha, sinting..

btw gw skarang dah kerja di starbucks, huhu, sbagai part timer gt, lumayan , bentar lg mrasakan gaji pertama gw, huhu... sneng gila gw kerja disana, cm capeeeekknyaaaaaa, g ktolong bgt tau g siii, huhu, gokil, tp sneng si org2 menyenangkan smua huhu, cm waktu bwat kluarga+pacar emg rada berkurang sii, ya pinter2 aja de gw bagi waktunya eheh.. btw miss u darling

sepi sendiri, halah apaan sii?? hhehe

kespian gila gw di kondo, dah pada tidur smua, ada si yg msh bgn, cm mls bgt gw ngomong ma dia, yaa tau lah knp hehehe.. yg ada gw chat ma org2 gila deee hehe... skalian menghibur kesepian gw.. kangen pacar jg huhuhu... kangen papa :(...

kamis, 17-02-07

kangen mama!! those 2 words suddenlly pop in my mind :p, dah lama jg aku g nulis tentang mama, mungkin aku g mau sedih stiap kali nulis tentang dia, ternyata sangat2 tdk terasa sdh 4 taun aja lo, mama dah g ada ninggalin aku sendirian, satu2nya plajaran hidup yg kalo aku lbh milih, aku g akan milih itu, YA iyalah siapa jg yg mau, milih ditinggal ma nyokap.

sejak 4 taun yg lalu jg aku tiba2 brubah, yg tdnya biasa aja skarangjd g biasa aja, (hahahaha pd). sejak 4 taun yg lalu jg aku jd tkt syg dan percaya sama org. tp sbenernya banyak jg si hikmah yg bs kuambil dr smuanya, yg tdnya kau cm mikirin diri sendiri skarang dah g gt lg, yg pasti bgt aku brubah jd lbh dewasa, jd lbh dewasa dlm menghadpi sebuah masalah, tp 1 yg sangat berbekas di aku adalah, aku tkt bgt namanya ditinggal oleh org yg aku syg, aku sempet tkt syg sama org, karna aku tkt mreka akan hilang dr aku dan ninggalin aku, aku kan g mau kyk gt 2 kali.

time slowly heels my pain, its true!!, tp g 100% mengobati si, karna sampe skarang skt itu msh ada, cm aku dah bs nempatin skt itu di tmpt lain. tp aku bersyukur bgt waktu itu aku g jd ngambil keputusan sesaat untuk ngudahin aja, iknow it seems emo & all that stuff, but it hurts, really, aku ngerasa g kuat untuk ngejalanin itu, emg lg masa bodoh2nya waktu itu :p, 4 taun berjalan aku dah banyak berubah as a person.

4 taun ini jg berjalan, menyenangkan& menyedihkan. tp overall, 4 taun ini seru bgt di jalanin & g gampang sampe di tempat aku skarang, a ver2 long journey through it, made a lot of mistakes & i try to fix it

aku jd lbh peduli dgn org lain apa lg org yg aku syg, aku g mau bgt keilangan mreka lg, i also learn that we'll nver know what happen tommorow & all we know is the present & not live today by ur past. sejak mama meninggal, aku mencoba skali untuk hidup hari ini, menikmati hari ini, belajar dr masa lalu, tp tdk hidup dr masa lalu, & have fun wit today, cause life is too short to live on regret... i do have my own regrets, but i try to live with it, learn from it & move on slowly :p

maybe

hey im back, the old me, the goofy, happy me :p...mungkin minggu2 kmaren adalah minggu tersusah dlm kehidupan sminggu gw, for the 1st time, verdi were not here, company me in karawaci, very sad, than i start new semester, and for the first time, that i stay alone here in my kondo, in my room, no sound of him or everything..

maybe i have to addept with all of things, huh...and off course my roomate, it is just bunch off another story :p...but yesterday verdi came here, and stay for 2 days, what a lovely days for me!! soalnya sama skali g di rencanain, jd tu senen mlm gt gw ke jkt ma temen2 gw gt, pasti donk gw mau ktemuan ma dia, tdnya dah miris bgt tu, verdi sama skali g bs di hubungin, hpnya mati, dah mikir g bakal ktemu, eeh ternyata ktmuan di food fest, trs dia akhirnya ke karawaci dee, waaaa!!! snang skali hehe, tp hr ini dia hrs plg gt, soalnya kan bsk dia kyk ada outbound gt ma tmpt kuliahnya yg br, hehe...

g krasa bsk dah plg lg, snang skali, g hrs sampe hr jumat disini, hihihi, menyenangkan skali, bs tidur di rmh lg, ada mknan tiap hr, g perlu mikirin mkn nanti pake apa ya?? heheh, kangen papa ma arie jg huhu..

xoxo

kesepian

g pasti, mungkin itu kali ya yg paling untuk describe apa yg gw rasain skarang..g enak bgt ngerasain kyk gini..

the conspiracy between..

this is minee..:p



this is harris..



this is Uffi..


kmaren2 gt, gw kyk sempet bt gt, kamera gw sempat "menghilang" entah berantah gt, trs tiba2 kmaren muncul aja gt dr mana, gw jg g tau.. tp siapun yg pernah nyelot kamera gw, gw doain bgt spaya dia g akan sukses, hahahaha... untung aja ktemu, kalo g, nangis darah gw, secara kamera itu adalah hadiah dr bokap, huhuhu...trima kasih yg udh blkin kamera gw, untuk yg nyelot, gw tau kok siapa lo..ahwahwhah

and btw, mreka adalah objek2 disaat kebosenan gw melanda, haha..

ngerjain tugas sambil ngeliatin 2 org bodoh main poker..

sumpah bodoh bgt ngeliat org2 pada main poker, kyk asik sendiri gt, hehe..main tp duduknya hadep2an gt, bodoh bgt sumpah, hehehe..mau ngerjain paper bahasa cm mls, hrs nulis 2 halaman lg, huhu, untung topiknya gampang..

capek jg ya kmaren br plg dr s'pore, trs dah hrs kuliah lg, ngerjain smuanya langsung g ada jeda..trs bokap ternyata dpt cuti gt, enak bgt, dia dah creambath, trs potong rambut, lalu totok darah, enak gila huhu...pgn!!!!!! huhuhuh...

pacar ngomong sendiri kyk autis gt g penting hahahaha

in the middle of the night..actually it is already in the morning

i cant sleep ni...td tidurnya lamaaa bgt, secara minggu kmaren kyknya sibuk bgt, tidur pagi, klas pagi, gilaaa hehe...di hajar habis2an de td tidurnya..,sneng gt td di bgninnya ma sms pacar huhu, snang..but the problem now is, im just soo fricking hungry, dammit!!, dah gt nelpnin bokap g diangkat2, bt, pdhl mau nitip mknan hehehe...

huhuhuu :p

happy!!! akhirnya my final almost over huhu, and i got a good score for microeconomics, wow, fun!!! but im little worried about my statistic result, because it is just soo hard, but i did my best, and i hope god may do the rest, heheh...

btw pacar dimana ya? tdk ada kabar seharian :p..

night..

i miss u this night
i wanna hug u tonight
i want to kiss u
but i dont need ur everything
i just need U
i'll be waiting alone in the dark
than im gonna see u in the morning
when sunshine came into our face


love u darling, my only one...

WOW!!!

hadduuuh gimana ni senen dah uas/final, trs blm siap, paper br slesai stengah, gillaaaaaa!!! help me please, huhuhu...

:p

this how i play usually with him :p

gw br liat behind the scenenya "forgetting sarah marshal"..i think it is such funny movie, kyknya si filmnya lucu, and i wonder, when will a guy do that to me?? hehhe, maksudnya adalah, kpn cowok sedih kalo di putusin ma gw, ahhah, yg sampe g bs move on gt :p..huhuhu, kyknya seru ngeliat cowok kyk gt :p...biasanya kan cewek tu yg nangis2 gara2 putus, gw pgn liat gt kalo cowok yg diputusin trs g bs move on :p..tp gw paling sebel kalo cowok dah nge 2in, trs di bls nge 2in ma ceweknya malah ngambek, marah, nangis, curhat2 bodoh gt... gw mikir ya udh lah ya, santai aja, lo jg nge 2in kok, ya 2in blk jgn nangis, hahahahhaha...

random bgt sumpah, hehe..

promise is a promise

LIAR LIAR PANTS ON FIRE i hate people who can't kept their PROMISE

well here it is..

well here is my papa, he is just fcking crazy sometimes :p

this my new-added-siblings-stepmom family, maybe in the future, maybe..

this is him, i hope he is the last for me, what so called "my little-but-not-so little angel of mine..

i try to be nice, i try to be everything but hey nothing works..im searching for love, but actually is im searching for life...i lost my my mama at 14, then i lost everything, i lost my life, lost my family...i created the new me in 15, and it works until now...not much to say, just i've been hurt with many people, including my own papa :p...time heals everything?? really i dont think so, i guees forgive and forget heals wounds...try to be nice try to be honest, but hey im only human...i found my love ones in 16 going 17, until now he is still my love one, love hurts thats i love LOVE, he is just like my little angel who try to love me, and he love me for the way i am...

at 15 i have to search what life is, i grew older by myself nobody showing me how to be an adult...i envy people who still got a full family, and get angry with them if they are wasting their time with their mom...

i have sibling, and step siblings...im going to get a new family, like it or not thats life, her name is Rini, she is going to be my step mom, maybe in the future, i like her but not yet in love with her..

i have family to hold and that special person to love...i have smile and i have bruised..i love everything in it..

i miss u

well suddenly i miss my mom, i dont know why, i just read blog from one of my best person, she wrote about mom, how i realize i miss my mom now..msh krasa kadang2 mama di samping aku, nemenin, ngobrol, but it is just my imagination..and then i realize that she is already in better life now, watching me..sometimes i need her soo much, gimana g, secara kan cewek pasti akan slalu kangen sama nyokapnya, gimanapun..one thing that i miss the most is, when she talk to me and how she can understand me, better soo much better thatn any one else, GOD how much i miss her..im such a sensitive person :p..

i learned something maybe not just someting, but i learn a lot from my mom...i learn knowing my family, especially my father, im not that close with my father, that is until now, i learn how to get close with him, make him my frien, its kinda hard, karna kita orgnya sama, jdnya sdikiti susah untuk dkt sama dia..aku blajar untuk bisa survive dgn smua keadaan yg ada, karena itu jg aku jd lbh cepet dewasa drpd org2 seumur sama aku..

apapun yg terjadi dgn dia, walaupun dia g ada sama aku skarang, aku akan slalu sayang sama dia, akan slalu mencoba yg terbaik bwat dia, bagaimanapun caranya jg aku akan mencoba untuk menjadi yg terbaik bwat dia, g gampang untuk ngelakuin itu cuma aku akan slalu coba untuk itu, aku g mau ngecewain mama..i love u mom, i hope u are in better life and better place now, i love u and i miss u...and i miss arya too..

kedinginan ni..

well, aku br ni di dunia blog :p..msh rada gaptek gt..hmmm...bingung mau nulis apa, sangking kedinginannya di kamar kondo..kangen jg ma rmh, pusing de, my father is sick, and i cant be there with himm, sedih jg, oh well mau gimana??

btw aku msh kuliah di uph, karna rmh ku jauh bgt jdnya aku nge kos disini..

well this is my blog, just enjoy the ride...

love uu..

this night

i dont know what i have to write, just enjoy the ride :p...