for better or worse? Perhaps?

Have you ever think about killing yourself? You know the guilt after it or perhaps the greatest feeling after it? I always fascinate with that, how a person feel after that, are they happy or not? This really a matters whom really close to my heart and my life. Sometime in my life, i have been thinking about it several times. That time i was young, i can't think straight and in that time i feel i don't have someone who i can talk to. In that time, i just lost my mom. You know sometimes people would say, what are they thinking, taking their own life, doing foolish thing. But hey, if you ever be in that point, you will never say something like that, if you ever be in that or in their position, you'll know how the feel of hopelessness, didn't know what to do, bullied by friends or even bullied by their live. And i can assure you that, there's nothing easy in this life. It's not I'm supporting suicide, no i never support something like that. But, there are certain time in your life, when you really feel down, awkward, unloved. When you ever feel like that, try to embrace your life, if you can't embrace your like, than embrace every breath that God ever give you, I always believe God have a certain "mission" for me, that He/She give me this life. Even though sometimes life isn't unfair, always remember this, there are something or someone that make this life seems fair enough to live in. Talk to someone, or write a diary to ease your problems, if you ever get bullied, fight them, it is okay for you to fight the bully, it is okay to fight for yourself, it will make you stronger, its not showing you who's the stronger, no, it will show you there are no one single soul in this earth who can disrespect you as a human being. Everybody different. Embrace that, be happy that you are beautifully different. So, if someone reading this feeling try to take your own soul, be though there, there are so many better things to do rather than take your own life. This life is beautiful if you believe it.